Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Too old to be excited and nervous about school reopening next Monday

Today is already the 28th of  December. Well. well what do you know, in 5 more days I'll be back in school for my 30th year in this profession.Still an English teacher and i still feel great about that too.Another year added means I'll be 52 years old kah. kah. kah....Nothing funny but I have yet to feel my age.....not yet i guess.

Come to think of it, do i want to change my style or just maintain IT? ......hmmmmm what does IT means.....Still the colourfull socks......my funky shoes..........gee whiz i have not finalise my first impression this new year.

One thing I'm very sure of.......I'm not a class teacher. God must've answered my prayers. God is great. Mind you for 3 consecutive years l have to handle the same level of class and were they a handful......I have to emphasize something, teaching is my passion, next baking, next some other thing kah kah.... So that leaves me still being the boss for the prefects. YES I have my works cut out for me well and good.. Its just that I still do not know the classes that i will be teaching....tomorrow kot baru tau  and then the spontaneous reaction would be...lagi best tak tau.

Hei what about my style.....or better still, shall I adopt a low profile image........is that suitable.....pening, pening pening......I really am still blurrrr on this predicament ...konon jer tu. sebenar dah plan sesuatu kah kah kah.....

Thursday, December 2, 2010

dah mula masak n bagi markah

Saya suka makanan yg sedap. Saya amat suka makanan yg sedap. tapi susah nak dapat n jumpa. Sometimes it is expensive, Sometimes we dont get the opportunity to get it. most of the time i dont go to places that serve all these delicious flavours.  Sedihkan.
Masalah yg dihadapi ialah nak makan tp mood masak berangin. Sekejapje rasa rajin, pastu mood malas menjadi-jadi. kadang2 adejer benda yg tak ade n mencukupi. Guess what, these are all lame excuses not to cook yes?..Finally I have started to cook my 1st dish.
RESEPI: Hanieliza's DAGING PRUNES
MARKAH: 90/100
komen: memang sedap ha3. *****

Sebenarnye resepi ni mmg saya da target. bila dpt buat rase teruja sgt. Tq to pn hanieliza.
x pandai nk masukkan gambar. Next time saya akan cubanbagi komen yg lebih detail tentang penilaian saya, In saya buat suka2 jer. Maybe anak saya boleh ambil suma resepi yg saya dah cuba n nilai. dia pulak bole kumpul n cuba.

Friday, November 26, 2010

Memasak memang memerlukan kekuatan

Okay, now i know. I need to find and get all my energy and power reserve to start cooking. Rasanye baking senang sikit. Cooking ala-ala top chef ni memang getir. 
skop untuk masak (SGT PENTING)
1. bahan2 x leh lebih drpd 10.
2. bahan mesti mudah didapati....mana2 kedai bole dpt or jumpa
3. boleh beli bahan dalam amaun yg sedikit.
4. bahan yg berlebih boleh digunakan untuk makan atau digunakan dlm masakan hari-hari yg lain
5.bukan bahan yg pelik dan x reti nk sebut pon
6. bukan bahan yg mahal dan sikit pulak tu.
7.bukan bahan yg mudah rosak kalo tetiba x jd nk wat
8. resepi mesti boleh jd walaupon silap langkah ataupon bahan x cukup
9. proses masak x rumit 
10. sedap giler


ok  so markah 100.


Jadi setelah resepi dipilih, TOP CHEH akan memulakan kerjanya. 


Selamat maju jaya kpd resepi yg terpilih kelak. 

Monday, November 22, 2010

share recipies....anyone???

HISH TAK TAU LA, TP KINI MEMANG OBSES NK MEMASAK DAN MEnerai membuat kek atau ape ape kuih. Ade sesiapa kah di luar sana bole tolong carikan resepi yg telah dicuba n gerenti sedap dan jadi????? x nak lah bahannye yg pelik2 ok....x nklah yg susah n remeh nk dibuat ok! resepi dari dalam  atau luar negeri pon boleh. Yg turun temurun dan dari datuk n nenek pon boleh. Apabila saya dah buat, saya kan beri markah kepada masakan itu. Saya ni titlenyer.....top cheh ...yeah bukan TOP CHEF.  So apa tunggu lagi....pasing lah mana2 resepi yg boleh saya cuba.......cepat sebelom minat saya tukar kepada menjahit pulak....

Saturday, November 6, 2010

arabian nite.......wah seramnyer

Bunyinyer mmg hebat. Nk g ke tidak? Masaalahnye x de baju yg sesuai. My friends suma dah sibuk beli or tempah jubah2 mereka., What abt me?????Does dat mean I have to go back to my old tricks of mix n match again. Guess what Zalia suggested? Buy those fancy chains or laces from charisma and transform it into a belt. choose one which has lots of dandlings..... then put a lace over d face like d one worn by arabic women. She would lend me hers. Wahhhhhhh. On top of that wear a special chain dangling scarf or chain over the head...well...well..well. I"m sure the roof of the Dome(khemah aje pon..he3) will collapse.

Friday, November 5, 2010

how is school nowadays?

One day, a few girls came to see me. Biasalah if u dont teach them, u dont know they existed. walaupon berseliseh setiap hari. So, guess what these girls wanted. Rupa2nye they wanted me to chaperone them to go for a visit to Berjaya Times Square. APE? Berjaya Times Square.????? Hei people, I have never put my foot at that place.. Tipu? memang betul. Someone living in Selangor as long as i did but never been there? Bunyi mcm kelakar aje kan! The girls laughed at me. SOOOO iI told them its true. I will not be able to look after them because I am the one whose going to get lost kah3. Bunyi mcm kelakar aje. i gave them one of my most piercing stares. They really thought i was joking. JOKING MY FOOT. indeed. You see, I am someone who easily forget the last sign that i passed by. I am totally out with names, numbers and dates. i am beyond help. Here they were asking for my assistance. Therefore i told them, girls go and see someother young teachers to assists them. . Guess what they replied. Thats why we come to see you!  Now I gave them one of my very appealing smiles and retorted. Girls, girls, girls..i am oredi 51 years old. . I am one very old teacher. Of course those girls refused to believe me......he3(tentu adeib marah dengar nih!!).  After eventually convincing them, I managed to get them them interested in other young and obliging teachers. they left.
Note: i am old, I am not in the slightest mood to take care of active teenagers watmore the place is alien to me.GUESS what. Ade ramai rupenye gang yg x pernah g Berjaya Times Square. Memang kelakar betul. Where have we been all these while.     We have been engrossed with marking papers for test, exams, trials, gerak gempur, ujian setara, latih tubi etc, etc, etc.     Teruknye. can it get any worse???? What do you think!!!

turbulence in friends hearts..how sad

You know, i have gone through a lot of bitter experiences in my life. One still remained fossillised and i will never forget it. I learnt many valuable lessons in overcoming this grave incident. it made me more matured and strong to survive. Too bad its too early for me to reveal this darkest secret in my life. However with the precious advice and consolation that i receive without any prejudice, I take on new challenges and obstacles with a new angle and zest. Yes, i have suffered silently at that time and the pain was devastating. it was excruciating..Life was meaningless and I have no one to turn to. Life was so unfair to me......but I thanked God I came out of the ordeal a lady less heart-broken but more mellowed and forgiving. Alas...........lately many of my dear friends are undergoing their share of torments and heart-break.

There I was, seating quietly at my table, day-dreaming......and out of the blue comes a friend in need. They would just blurt out their heart's content as if there's no tomorrow. It is fated and God is great. My prior experience has left me with an invaluable talent. I am a terribly good listener. Boy, do i listen. When my friends cry their heart"s out, mind you, I too bleed inside. Oh me gosh, do i know what they are going through! How come they turn up in front of me just to share their  pain and grief. God must have guided them to me.

A collegue has been trying to straighten  her problems with her husband for a very, very long time if i am not wrong.  She has cried, screamed and lost her temper numerous times. We had a chance to clear the air of hostility and hatred the few times that we met . Oh no, this matter is far from over.

My other friend is feeling really hopeless with her marriage. She is letting fate takes its turn.

MORE TO COME

Thursday, November 4, 2010

what to do with feelings n emotions

only d title looks great but actually i am going to write on a small matter concerning the heart.. kenapa kita selalu sakit hati tentang perkara yg kecil2.. kenapa kita tiba2 jd marah sedangkan kita dah plan nak jd baik? kenapa perasaan kita mudah sangat terusik dgn perbuatan seseorang?TAPI yg paling teruk sekali, ramai di antara kita tak boleh nk sampaikan dan beritahu perkara sebenar SEDANGKAN perkara itu acap kali berlaku?

ramai orang tidak sanggup untk menanggung risiko akibat drpd berterus terang..i have told d truth once....see what happened to me..


Friday, July 9, 2010

well well what do you know

A call I received today was it. hei I got it lah hehehe

Monday, July 5, 2010

Suddenly I was inspired

I nearly got a broken heart today. But due to my good fortune, it only missed my heart by seconds. Ha3 luck is still on my side, thank God.
After making the call, my heart dropped into pieces. I had missed the train. The thing that I was looking for was out of stock. What? The advertisement just came out yesterday but it was launched in 2008. How come i did not know about it earlier? Before this my heart was not set on any of the choices given to me. There was always something not right or not up to my taste or standard. The preference was only so so. But then the moment i saw it the other day, I really liked it. it fits all the criteria I was looking for. ha3.
The next call i got still did not show any signs of hope for me. Oh dear, It seems I have to give up on it.I feel frustrated......

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Bored with what to wear at my age

Actually I want to start writing right away but I have to pause awhile to focus on a keroncong song that is on now hahaha...it has such a melodious tune that it is distracting me..it really is captivating  and relaxing and harmonious wow. Well what do you know the whole program is on keroncong songs best lah. Rasa nak nyanyi sama tapi suara tak best ...........nanti ade orang sakit telinga pulak

Tak tahu lah tapi tiba-tiba rasa macam tak de baju nak pakai. Baju tak rosak atau buruk atau hilang tapi, tapi.. Last time all my clothes were baju kurung and kebaya. Then I had a few kurung moden. These were all the fashion that i restrict myself to. It is only lately that i tried out some blouses and long skirts. I mix and match. Suddenly I found out to my surprise that I could match many items , funny isn"t it. How come last time I did not do that? Weird isn"t it. Why suddenly out of the blue I want to change my style? I think i was slightly influenced by my other half. He likes to pass comments on my dressing. Maybe I look so plain. Well all this while I have been  a simple person. The truth is, I know nothing about fashion or trend. I am utterly and totally blind about fashion. I do not walk on the catwalk so style and trend does not apply. I do walk along the school corridor and in class though. Hei, not forgetting I do stand on the stage in the school hall. Then it dawned upon me that the students that i teach are my audience. They are all eyes at what you do and put on. They make comments spontaneously and truthfully. They notice every single clothing and accessories that teachers adorn. Models only display fashion during shows but teachers are models every second, Wow is that great or scaryyyyy.... 


Gee I do not know whether I am happy, glad or sad with this discovery! Not a great discovery but now I find it quite disturbing. Now why is that so...First of all, my tudung collection is very, very limited..I will let you in on a little secret..haha i have less than 20 pieces. So what does that leave me...terribly, terribly difficult to match my kurung and kebaya. So I just apply my own strategy. As long as it is the same colour, irrelevant of the tone, i works fine with me heh heh. Nobody is going to give me grades right? it is not a sin to run out of the range of colour. after all, what to do sometimes I am kedekut to fork out money to buy new tudung. Kalau makan kenyang kan , teruknye..

If you think my tudung collection is limited, my shoe collection is worst. I like to keep to one shoe, I am that type of person. But now I have broken the rule , no actually bend the rule a bit. I have in my possession 2 shoes and I  sandal. The sandal is red. I just love it. I could easily match it with blue, yellow, purple or other colours of my socks actually.. No pantang whatsoever on the colour of the socks. Amazing isn't it. I never know red can blend into just any colour. Another new discovery hehehe...puas hati















Friday, June 25, 2010

I'm still here n going strong

Yes L know it, why the sudden silence and disapperance? You know sometimes I got lots of stuff and ideas to share but time does not permit. So you people have to bear with me when i suddenly disappear okay...

These past week has been a really hectic and busy and torturing days, When you have to give marks to students memang waktu yg amat menyeksakan. First you have to finish marking, mak aii rasa nk tercabut bahu dan pening pale otak menengokkan jawapan budak-budak ni. Ape agaknye yg tersimpan dlm kepala mereka ni. Macam x pernah belajar...pelik. penat rasanye train n drill diorng nih tp tetap x menjdi.....wei susoh sebenarnye...Then you have to give d marks and check the marks . Time ni laaaa budak2 tu nk merayu markah mereka bagai nk rak. Tak tau le...kadang2 rase malas nk layan tp kesian pulak, tp sapa suruh x belajar. Ish3 kalau ikutkan hati mmg lantakkan mereka tp kite nikan cikgu and seorang ibu, mmg tak sampai hati. Kadang2 tu mmg dah naikkan markah saja nk tengok perangai mereka merengek2 minta markah, Kelakar pon ade.

Then came d part where you have to key in the marks. bab ni mmg best, kena berebut ngan gang cos suma org siap d same time therefore nk key in kena book or queue. Masa ni lah bilik gerakan peperiksaan tu sentiasa ade org kalau tak sunyi sepi. biasalah org2 veteran ni terkial-kial nk tekan nombor and semak nama pelajat. banyak kali tersasul tu mmg perkara biasa. Yg paling best lagi, setiap kali nk key in markah dah lupa proses nya. tak ingat2, tak tau le peel guru2 ni. Tapi gang peperiksaan tu mmg dah faham sgt dgn kawan2 mereka ni. Everytime they will help to open the program and set it up for us....best tak kawan gini he3 .

Sapa3 yg x siap marking mmg stress giler time nk key in markah ni. Dah lah kena menyorok sana sina nk cari pot yg sesuai nk menyiapkan marking, boss peperiksaan sentiasa dtg memanggil-manggil mengingatkan markah2 yg belum settle lagi dlm marksheet. ada pulak kadang2 markah dah key in beria-ia tp  tak save kah3. KENA BUAT BALIK SEMULA.... hehehe tension. Cerita bab peperiksaan ni banyak tp malas nk continue sebab tak kuasa.....

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Oh dear how time really flies.....

My anger did not subside. it went on flaming heatedly in my heart. What had sparked off that untimely incident? It was none other than a boy in my class who had rudely told me to move away from the board while i was still writing notes on the board. Can you imagine how I felt? There I was writing big and clearly on the board so that they could read my handwriting, and this boy suddenly shouted loudly for me to step aside!!!!. Hei, what do you think am I doing standing in front of the class? Posing for pictures to be taken is it? Am I not also hard at work trying to cover as much notes as possible just before the exam starts ???( didn't realise there were so many questions circling in my head at that time) Was it not me who always try to come up with spot question and answers so that these students could score? Was it not this lady that always give them short notes to memorise in case they got stuck not being able to answer any questions at all...


Then it happened. Out of the blue, a sudden realisation hit me. The words really struck a sensitive chord in my heart. I became dumb founded with hurt and dismay. What, why, how could he had said that.... I was beyond reconcile. I put my marker pen down, close my books and told the class I was done with the lesson....my last word hanging without any fullstop. It took me by surprise too that my reaction was that severe. The boy thought i was joking when I stopped writing. Yeah, this time i maent business. Those words had actually severed a major vein in my heart and it was utterly and hopelessly beyond repair...










Thursday, May 27, 2010

HOW TIME FLIES.....

Wah, it has been nearly a month since I last up dated my blog. On my bday I had really wanted to jot down something but alas, time does not permit. What a joke, I did start to scribble something but I was interrupted therefore I stopped. The next thing I know, I just couldn't find my notes. Ha3 something weird had happened actually. I had actually trespassed into my daughter's blog by mistake. Of course she did not log out......soooo I just typed innocently thinking it was my blog.... The rest you will know what happened when you read my daughter's entry, kih3 klakar.

These last few days I had undergone quite a hectic life. What with the exam coming for the form threes n form fours , you have to make sure they know everything allready so that they can answer the questions when the time comes. You know what, trying to make students understand is no easy job. There you are thinking out ways n methods so that things make sense to them, some of these kids do not appreciate it at all. So a few days before exam, cikgu ni dah meletup and mengamuk. Ape taknye, sakit tekak kita mengulang-ulang benda yang sama, ape yang dia kisahnyer... Hish, sabar ajer... Actually, i do not give up on the kids, I am quite tough too knowing my age, but they do get on your nerves sometimes, or many, many TIMES....more than I can say lah.

So that day when I merajuk nak mengajo kelas tu, dia faham lak tu. Menggelegak hati rase macam nak menjerit and marah-marah tapi....

Monday, April 26, 2010

terharu nye bila....

read this" Rasullah SAW bersabda yg maksudnya: " Org2 mukmin yg paling sempurna imannya ialah mereka yg paling baik akhlaknya dan sebaik-baik manusia daripada kalangan kamu ialah mereka yg paling baik kepada isterinya." - riwayat Abu Daud. Well guess who read that caption to me today??? My hubby. The question that came after that was," Am I good to you?"

Saya berasa amat terharu terus tergamam . Ape nak jawab? Of course he has been kind to me. He cares about his children tp biasa la, tak tau mcm mane nk tunjuk. He does it in his own special way but not obvious. Hey, kids! if u r reading this, pay heed to this situation or statement OK!!! Your parents, many of them r of d same age as me - 50 ++. They just do not know how to show they love u. These things were not taught by their parents too. Those who do show their love , learnt it themselves how to do it.

dah pulih dengan sendirinya

Suddenly I have recovered. thank God I have gotten over that down and depressed feelings. Sports, check- over. Room make over, check - still in process. Exam questions, check belum siap...haaa ni yang berat ni.

You see, nak buat soalan peperiksaan bukannye mudah. You have to take many aspects into consideration. kadang-kadang pelik, when you set the questions too easy,many students will fail. However if the questions are tough, many students will survive the test and passed, pelikkkan....

Setting the questions means all have been covered, the syllabus i mean.  Sometimes your colleges have not done so, therefore you have to tell them what you have set so that they can prepare the students. if not parents will complain. preparing the students is not easy work. the more you tell them whats coming out, the more they will blunder. kah3. But what to do, sometimes teachers feel guilty not tranning the students but students ni memang tak faham-faham. jadi sebenarnye tak payah nak train mereke semua ni. Bila results keluar memang melukakan hati, pecah dan hancur berderai-derai. Kadang-kadang rasa sia-sia aje mengajar budak-budak ni, dia buat tak tau je.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

entahle tiba-tiba aje

Dont know why but tiba-tiba aje rasa depressed, murung, sedih n sakit hati. Banyak benda belum settle tapi malas nak uruskan. Bila layan perasaan rasa sedih...... hmmmm x leh layan cos menyusahkan diri sendiri aje nanti. Actually nobody can read your mind. if you are sad you must tell someone, but which someone. Sometimes the matter is quite sensitive to be told n shared. Not sure people will understand or can lighten the burden. Sometimes rasa nak mengamuk tapi takut pulak risiko nye.Hish bagaimana nak melepaskan perasaan yang amat mengganggu jiwa.

People can be very annoying without their knowing it or maybe they purposely like to annoy people. no names mentioned but but but...

really when I'm depressed i dont like it at all. i cannot settle many chores. my, my, that will lead to more problems. Nobody can help laaaaaa. Sakitnye hati

Most of the time memang i am happy go lucky.x kisah banyak benda. I am not too attached to people so people cannot gauge my real feelings. You see the older you get the more sensitive you are. I am no different. There were times i wish to pour out my heart's content but have no strength to do so. x sampai hati pun ade jugak. x tahu le

Sunday, April 11, 2010

How to beat stress

Of course I get stressed up, what do you think! It does not show???? Well, well, well. There is a secret I would like to share with all of you. Maybe it will work for you too...

Firstly,  I like to dress up. No. I am not rich to be buying clothes or accessories all the time. Most of the days, I just put on my baju kurung. Pakai je ape yg ade, tak yah nak fikir2. Grab it and just find a scarf to match. This may go on for some time. Jeng3, angau tiba2 datang cos banyak kerja or time management vey tight. So time to dress up. Put on your skiirt and find a new scarf or belt. Wear it a little differently than other people. What other people.......x de sebenarnye. Sometimes KB, Idura or Hawa. Don't forget Zalia. They do look pretty and lovely cos they got many dresses and scarves. I dont belong to that group. I'm very low profile in my collection of clothing.  What I do is to dress up my way and style which people dont do. Only people in my school know what I'm talking about. Ade lagi yang diorang tak pernah tengok lagi kah3.... its coming.

Secondly, to stamp out stress is to bake. Bukan nak angkat bakul ( laa ni dah x larat pn nak angkat) but my cakes are really special. WHY????? I bake it with love, lots of it. When i bake i think of all those people who love my cake. These include my nephews and nieces, hasmah, nabilah, hawa, not to forget idura, timah d, matos and many many more... Add in more choc, more moist, extra butter bla, bla, bla

to be continued

Monday, April 5, 2010

going through a phase

How time flies? Wow before u know it, this year i am 51 years old. Gee whiz i am more than half a century already. i am 51 and i am still going strong teaching 15 year olds. This year my classes are really a handful, thats the least i can say. 3 form three classes and 1 form 4.
        This year I target to get as many scorers as I  can for their English. The trouble is. I am the one really aiming for A's. The students themselves are still lost without an aim. it would be tough with the attitude that they are in now. Some have shown some concern on the marks they are scoring but on the whole many are still happily wasting their time. So this means I have to get them going on the right track starting now. Does that mean I have to be mean and punish them .........
         I have plans and sometimes strategies for these students but sometimes its difficult to execute because too many students and many just cannot cope. Cikgu je lebih tapi budak2 ni ramai yg lambat pik up and belum sedar dari lamunan mereka. its the same story repeating itself every year.......
            well, i just have to work at and with these students so that they score for english. Susah ke english ni, tang manenye yg susah, i just don't understand.....
               I really hope the students know where they stand and start to study......Hei you guys , wake up, teachers are waiting to help you on your way to success......

Sunday, March 14, 2010

macam mana buleh lupe?

That's exactly what had happened. I totally forgot abt my father's bday! How could that happen? Well for one thing, I was really distracted  due to an unforseen reason. A loved one had fallen ill. My mistake was, i did not put a reminder in my hp. That was an unforgivable mistake. Poor abah, he had to make an effort to remind his children abt his bday. Wow! that was a real blow to my conscience. Kesian abah!!!

Actually the date is so easy to remember 13.3.31. Angka2 nye sungguh mudah sekali. Cih bedebah, macam mana boleh lupa. Berkali2 memarahi diri sendiri tapi tak guna sebenarnye. Jadinye saya suruh anak2 cepat wish atuk mereka a happy birthday. Harap2 ini dpt meriangkan hati atuk mereka. Sampai hati betul diri ini hingga terlupa tarikh yg begitu bermakna. Abah dah 79 tahun. Saya berdoa agar abah sentiasa sihat utk beramal ibadat dan hepi selalu.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Menyampah apabila..

Dah lama tak update blog, rindu pulak. Actually many things has happened during that time. A very loved one has undergone a very bitter episode in his life. I was around to give moral support , care and attention. Thank God the ordeal is over but not for the sufferrer. Kena redho aje lah. ianye adalah dugaan dari Tuhan. Maybe I will relate the story sometime later.

Ni nak cerita bab menyampah. Kenapa???? Haa kalau tandas kat rumah buat hal memang sakit hati. Kes ni memang suka berulang, itu yg buat lagi tak suka n double menyampah. Ape sebab tiba-tiba leh tersumbat? Kenapa, kenapa? Sudah tettu kena keluar duit......Ini lagi x best....Geramnye tapi tak boleh selesai masalah sehinggalah kita panggil plumber.

When the plumber comes, sebenarnye kita rasa x selesa sehingga dia selesaikan kerjanya. Sometimes x berjaya selesai, tension dibuatnye. Most of the time , plumbers also do their work  through trial n error jugak. tuan rumah lah kena menanggung derita tunggu kerja siap. Rumah tentu x tentu hala. Ade org lain memang kita jadi rimas.

Ada bab yg lg x suka. Plumber x dpt mengikut cita rasa kita dlm menyelesaikan kerjanye. Nowadays customer never always right. In the end we have to agree to the plumber. Hasil always menyakitkan hati and  we have to live with that for a very long time. dah jd sebab tu boleh cakap. kita tengok kali ni, mcm mana agaknye ye? x berharap sgt akan dpt ape yg diimpikan.  Stop dulu, nnti cerita hasil dari pembaikan tandas tu...

Sunday, February 28, 2010

tak suka kena penyakit ni

Penyakit ape yg suma org x suka? kah3 suma org x suka suma penyakit. soalan ape tu??? I just want to emphasise on this cough that I'm suffering from. Where did I suddenly get it from? A puzzling question that haunts many sufferers!!! yet no satisfactory answers that will tone down your frustration over this cough. sakit jiwa bila kena batuk.

Bila kena batuk, x leh tido. Ganggu tido org lain juga. Kesian pd diri sendri n org lain juga. Bila kena batuk, sakit dada. ganggu keselesaan. Bila batuk segan nk duduk kt org cos ganggu bila nk berbual. Selera mkn terganggu juga sbb batuk nnti tersembur makanan lak.Bila batuk, slalu suara hilang atau jd parau, lagi x suka. ganggu banyak benda lah.

Dah buat satu resolusi, bila batuk, x payah nk pantang makan cos tiada manfaatnye pn. jaga makan tp masih sengsara menanggung batuk, tiada bezanye pun. Mcm2 petua dicuba tp sebenarnye langsung x membantu. sebenarnye nk buat sedap hati that we have tried something to overcome this cough. banyak petua yg tau n dah cuba tp tiada yg mujarab. jd hadapilah fenomena batuk ni ngan tabah. mmg tak dak sapa leh tolong. Pabila masa dah cukup ia akan baik ngan sendrinye. Sebelum tu, redho aje le.

Friday, February 26, 2010

a story about THE RECORD BOOK

Kenapa nk jd guru, bukan yg lain masa buat pemilihan kerja dulu? entahlah, mmg dulu hati x pernah terbuka untk pekerjaan yg lain. Pelik jugak. Napa x terfikir nk jd akauntan, jurutera or lain2. kalau x tentu dah kaya raya sekarang. agaknye exposure kurang. Untung budak2 sekarang, peluang terbuka luas untk segala mcm pekerjaaan yg x wujud dulu. Kerana telah ditakdirkan, so now i am a teacher and has never regretted about my choice. it is a real passion.

You see, I love teaching. I would like to tell u a little secret about the most important thing possesed by a teacher. Yeah, it is the record book. Mcm pelik ajekan but its true, buku rekod ni maha penting dlm kehidupan seorang guru. Ia adalah periuk nasi guru itu. Apa tu? Kah3.... without this periuk nasi, x dpt gaji nnti, tau x? in this record book (RB) contain lots of information, details, data, records, and lots more.

Awal tahun, cikgu akn berebut2 n x sabar nk dapatkan rb baru. Maklumle banyak benda nk diisikan dlm benda alah ni.Pejabat akan tuliskan nama atau nomborkan supaya senang nk trace kalau hujung minggu x hantar untk diperiksa oleh pengetua. Sebab tu kadang2 cikgu x tido mlm menyiapkan RB cos nk hantar Friday. Friday hari paling tension utk guru disebabkan oleh hal ini. sebab tu hari jumaat jgn kacau guru cos nyawa dihujung tanduk apabila x sempat nk siapkan RK. nk sembang2 pn x leh, nk makan2 x leh. Tiba2 kena ganti relief kelas pulak, lagi bengang saat begini. Tapi kadang2 time inilah pulak kawan2 bukak gosip best, atau ade jual barang. alamak...... Jawabnye kena stay back siapkan RB.. mkcik ni x pernah x hantar RB n always make sure her RB disiapkan mlm sebelum nye. Org tua lah kata. Buat kerja lambat, jd kena pandai cari time biar kerja beres so that esok dia boleh kacau org lain yg terkial2 siapkan RB mereka. Sengaja aje nk offer jambu potong nagan asam boi n limau kasturi. Lebih hebat lagi nk buat org jeles, offer nk tlg hantar kan RB ke pejabat sapa2 yg dah siap RBnye. best betul buat begitu ha3...

Dlm RB ade biodata lengkap guru2. Suma ade dlm tu. Kenapa perlu ade segala maklumat itu. sebenarnye, setiap tahun akan keluar borang menyampah yg sama yg meminta data guru berulang kali. Buang aje komputer kt pejabat tu. Why? Why? Dipejabat tu telah ade segala info tentang guru, but evrytime jika ada borang yg memerlukan maklumat guru, kite jugak yg kena isi. Berkali-kali , over n over nk minta maklumat guru. Kt pejabat tu x leh print ke? Tension berbakul2.. So penyelamat keadaan adalah RB. of cos bese le cikgu x kan ingat segala maklumat dirinye, especially gaji, bila dilantik, bila sah jawatan etc... rujuk kt RB. Pentingkan RB ni. tu baru sket je tu....

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Kenape guru2 usung RB ke hulu n ke hilir pabila dia masuk kelas?....In the RB ade rancangan pelajaran, the lesson yg dia nk ajar hari tu mengikut jadual jadual waktu. Jd sebenarnye cikgu dah tahu ape dia nk ajar pada kelas dia hari tu. Kesimpulannye, dlm Rb ade rancangan yg dah diajar, nk ajar dan perlu diajar. JADI  kenapa x print aje benda ni supaya senang cikgu2 ikut aje dari tahun ke tahun? x payah evrytime kena bertungkus lumus buat setiap hari, setiap minggu, setiap bulan hingga habis tahun tu?????  Haa disini le snagnye. Murid2 yg kita dpt x sama setiap tahun. Evrytime it is different achievement. So a standard lesson plan is impossible to follow. thats why kena buat sendri punya setiap kali nk ajar. Susah sebenarnye tugas guru ni kan, kan ,kan... each lesson plan caters to a specific class only.

dlam menulis lesson plan ni, ade mcm cara guru melaksanakannnya. Kalau tidak , x kan le tension hari jumaat kan... ni nk cerita ni.That means the lesson must be ready b4 u enter class, rite? Sometimes, due to unforseen circumstances, lesson plan x ready but tcer must enter class n teach. SO, tcer ajar without lesson plan. kah3.....susah jawabnye. Kalo sampai 4 hari begitu, on Friday puas nk ingat ape dah ajar utk suma kelasnye utk seminggu tu. Tp ni perkara biasa, many tcers have survived this way. Time constraint le kata. Therefore hari jumaat terpeleot sendri.... Ade jugak buat siap2 untuk seminggu terus. Wah!!!!! ni lagi susah. Tiba2 jika ade acara atau mc dah jd rumit keadaan. Lesson x dpt jalan tp dah siap tulis....... Satu lagi ialah, tulis lesson note tp masuk kelas ajar benda lain.....ni ape pulak.....mmg x faham. jd bila nk semak balik ape yg dah diajar jdnye x tepat cos yg tercatat bukan ape yg diajar, PELIKKAN.. Lepas tu mcm mana nk set soalan peperiksaan, suma jadi upset.....

Dalam RB ada nama guru2 buat soalan peperiksaan mengikut yg telah dipersetujui ramai. nape, kadang2 ade buat2 lupa dia kena set soalan, last minit menyusahkan org lain.... Ada ruang markah murid2. ni maha penting.Suma markah murid mesti ade dlm RB guru. x de means masalah dunia..........sekarang ni ade head count. God knows who invented this programe????? mmg sah mencekik darah guru2. semua guru jd mereng awal tahun bcos of this. Numbers, numbers, numbers its endless.... Yg x logiknye, skola dah setkan berapa orang dpt A, B   dan berapa patot gagal. Bukan guru subjek tu yg buat. sebab tu le guru2 jd gila nk capai taget skola. Guru2 mesti ade jawapan nape muridnye gagal evrytime.......Guru berurusan ngan manusia. we can only plan but God execute but nobody cares about that . Kesian kan. We cannot predict but we can make an effort but public is very hostile towards tcers most of the time....

Dlm RB juga ade ruang jadual waktu. To some tcers, their ttble is a secret cos they teach less periods than others. Nnti org lain jeles dia ajar sket. Sometimes we teach the subject which is x our option. Nasib le jika kena .I only like to teach my subject so u know my opinion on this matter. Bagi subject lain means.......tp nk buat mcm mana...x leh escape

terdapat juga ruangan maklumat murid kelas kita jd guru kelas. Waaaaaaaa jenuh nk buat.. Tambah nk penuhkan ruangan SPBT. ruang yuran, buku2 rujukan, dan banyak lagi lah..... malas nak cerita dah. nampaknye cerita x habis. dah penat n tiba2 x de mood

So the moral of the story is, the Record Book is really an important thing in a teachers profession. If by the end of the year it is torn n tatterred, it has fulfilled its precious function. Jika buku ni hilang u all faham je le nape guru tu mcm nk gila mencarinyer...he3

Sunday, February 21, 2010

thank god problem resolved

I was in real truoble. Boss kalu tido x cukup mmg akan moody abis. So thay morning dah dpt kata dua. g klinik.... ngan jelingan mata yg sungguh tajam n penuh makna. Mkcik sorang je yg faham ape maknenye tu.

Pendek kan cerita, we went to look for a clinik or farmasi. yg mana jumpe dulu. Secretly i was hoping clinics or farmasi would be closed, Takut nk menghadapi kenyataan. Tuhan sayangkan hambanye. Ade pulak klinik pakar yg dibukak. x de parking so p pusing 3x round. ade parking.

Masuk je klinik mkcik daftar trus, x de orang, so dpt jumpa doktor immediately. Boss masuk gak. Doktor tanya ape masalah. x tau mcm mana nk mula n explain. So I told him of my severe blocked nose condition. Doc questioned me further and i supplied him with answers.

Then doc proceed with taking out his gadgets. Ni yg x suka ni. Alat tu panjang n nampak tajam. Sgt x suke. Dia lak asyik membelek2 benda tu sambil testing. Nape i dont like clinical instruments. my friend once told me that she went for a nose check. The doc x sterelise pn insrtument dia. lepas aje guna pd satu org tua terus aje masukkan kt hidung dia. masyaAllah. x sanggupnye nk imagine gelinye. dari satu hidung ke hidung org lain. Tp doc ni simpan alatnye dgn baik. leganye.

it is actually a micro tv that can view the passage way in the nose. mula2 doc kasi spray sesuatu dlm hidung supaya senang hidung kembang. kasi kembang wat pe? Alat tu mmg halus dan nampak tajam, wat ape nk kembangkan hidung.Jd alat tu memulakan perjalanannye dlm ruang rongga hidung .Kah3 bos terperanjat tengok rambut2 hidung yg menyapa alat tu. sah berserabut dan subur dlm hidung kite. rase amat kagum tengok ciptaan Tuhan. Dlm hidung berkelok2 dan banyak ketulan daging TP suma itu rupa2nye normal. Mmg suma org patut ade. Tinggal lagi mkcik punya ketulan tu besar sket. padanle menghalang laluan udara.

Doc said its small matter and can be cured with certain medication and spray. If not potong n kecilkan aje ketulan2 tu. Bab tu x suka dengar. After several pills taken n spray used, hei. it actually works, sia2 aje selama ni menanggung blocked nose. Tu le degil x nk dengar cakap boss. Lagi pulak boss yg tanggung billnye. tersengeh lebar mkcik kite. (sometimes mkcik ni boros x tentu hala n kedekut x bertempat)

Ladies n gentlemen, the moral of the story is, dengar cakap org tua. Kalo sakit mmg kena g klinik, x yah nk tanggung sengsara sorang diri tp sebenarnye menyusahkan org lain

it was nothing after all

All this while I have suffered from blocked nose and ignored it. Why? cos I am afraid to see the doctor n be diagnosed of some unknown critical diseases. Jakun kan tp benar. Ramai org mcm tu tp happening to me is unbelievable. My brother is a doctor, gynae to be specific, his wife, 2 daughters and  menantu and another in d making. To top that up, another niece is also in the making of becoming one. Wah, sepatotnye kita akan berasa amat selamat dengan sebegitu ramai doktor dlm keluarga. What to do, dah perasaan takut mengatasi segala-galanya. Bos  dah lama pujuk termasuk marah, merajuk dgn pandangan sinis, begis dan mcm2 lagilah. Tp beselah, kite ni degil dan TAKUT. Org zaman ni kalo takot jumpe doktor mmg x dpt nak tolong.

SO, hari tu bos sgt marah cos I ganggu tido nye sampai ke pagi dia x dpt tido, Abis 2, mkcik ni mmg pantang pasang aircon mmg cari naas. Confirm kena bloked nose yg kronik. Bos tau kite punye kelemahan tp dia x tahan panas so tepakse le musin panasni tido aircon on....Masuk je bilik rase sejuk sampai ke tulang hitam. Rasenye mlm tu tukar warna trus jd kelabu kot, cos sejuknye bisa betul. Cepat cari stokin tebal dan pakai baju tebal. mengalahkan musim salji. Cepat2 selimut diri tp sejuk mlm tu jahat gile. sejuknye trus menusuk ku dgn tanpa rase kasihan. Mkcik trus jadi beku. Apa lagi serangan blok nose pn mengganas le...
Bayangkan le sendri keadaan mkcik tatkala tu......

BERSAMBUNG ESUK KOS KEKANGAN MASA.....  

Thursday, February 18, 2010

nape la ni nk kena ganti2, x faham

ianye dah berlaku sebanyak 2 kali. Selaunye kalo nk extra cuti , x kisah le nk ganti sbb  sendri yg nak.

yg bestnye tahun ni, kokurikulum pd hari sabtu pn nk kena ganti jika cuti am. masyaAllah ape nk jadi ni. ganti hari nk jalankan perstuan, permainan dan unit uniform. Oooo me gosh, mmg x leh trima langsung. Puas memujuk hati , tp masih x berjaya hingga ketika ni dah bln Feb. nape nk kena ganti. Nama pun dah cuti, so.... I just don't know what those guys up there are thinking... Or maybe just the big guys in my school yg saja2 nk dera we all.

You all yg nk jd cikgu tu( yg berebut borang) dan sit 4 d test, fikir le masak2. Jd cikgu la ni mmg x best. Not like the time when I was a teacher.(mula jd tahun 1981 sampai la ni n masih bertahan, tp sebeno nye dah x larat dah, gitu) teaching was so much fun. I really enjoyed this profession which was my ultimate ambition. But everything has gone sour turning to bitter.

You see, mcm mana le budak2 tu nk pandai? Belajar terlampau banyak sngat benda. La ni suma nk masuk sylabbus. Entah ape ke jadahnye (my daughter's fav. word). In d end . average students gain nothing. Penat je g skola. Cikgu jgn cakap le. Suma benda nk suruh buat, mengalahkan pekerja buruh. Cuba cakap sapa ade keje time hari ahad ataupun cuti am. Cikgu le. Cuti sendri pun dikorbankan mengajar kelas tambahan le, g kursusu le, camping. n mcm lagi benda alah. Alih2 tetiba dah penat, parents marah2. .

Banyak lagi nk bebel tp masa suntuk. Rekod book baru je siap tulis, td lupa tanda register. Pastu kertas kerja pengawas yg nk hantar dah misplace lak. resit belum habis tulis. Borang emis da seminggu x disiapkan, Tadi baru teringat nak lengkapkan borang jaga periksa PMR . Mcm le teringin sgt nk jaga..... Laa td nak guna buku , rupa2nye belum siap tanda lagi kah3.... ( baru bagi tau sikit je tu benda2 yg x siap...) Well, I will survive......bagaimana cara x pikir lagi....

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

selalu terpaksa merawat hati yg luka

its hard 2 believe but its true. the person that u loved the most will always break ur heart and it will  happen repeatedly. Bab mcm ni mmmg x suka layan. Tau nape, cos x de penyudahnye. So layan hati yg luka n biarkn ia sembuh sendri which takes ages. Sometimes it does not even heal.

Lets go back to school.

my whole life is in school cos thats where i work. Jumpa teman hidup pn di situ kah3. Abis tu, asyik dok kt skola, x habis2 wat keje, mmg x jumpe org lain lah kan. But now my boss (gelaran manje utk hubby) dah keje lain.... Life in sch can be very3 stressful. I am amazed how i withstand such pressure till now. God's willing.

kt skola, org tue ni lagi stress lagi dia pikir mcm2 cara nak releasekan stress.. Pakai baju yg dah buruk tp stailkan aje lain dr org lain kah3 pelik tp benar. pakai je baju yg murah2 tp matchkan ngan accessories yg pelbagai. Dats y I'm d trendsetter(kt skola je le).. Bila dah boring, pakai je tudung tu lilitkan je lebih2, kalo tidak kasi dia rumbai lebih sket. baju yg dah lama x pakai kenakan ngan tali pinggang yg glam dan biarkan dia jatuh n berayun-ayun ha3. Kutip je skaf yg dah lama tersimpan n simpulkan kt leher atau pinggang. saje je lalu depan koop atau meja cikgu2 tu beberapa kali. gerenti dia tegur n tanya mana dpt baju, etc, etc.
Setokin mmg eksesori yg maha penting,  pakai mcm2 warna. Suma org pelik tengok, so wat.....

I like 2 see d students expression when i  put on something different. Mereka slalunye kaget, speechless x tau ape kena teacher mereka ni. So mcm bese  tcer ni wat x tau je....

x perlu warm up cos da .......

jadinye, berhempas pulas la kite ni ( awalnye tadi da merajuk tp tuka fikiran x jd lak cos membazir je, org bukannye kisah pn) ke hulu ke hilir wat mcm2. teaching is my passion, so no problem. yg jd masalah jd guru pengawas cos x penah pegang b4 this.Tahun nin kena set up bilik pengawas.(da 2 thn dpt bilik  tp x beroperasi). Org tue ni pun mulalah wat operasinye . best lak rasanye nk set up bilik tu. Wat muka tebal n mintak aje ape2 yg teringat pd sapa yg kite jumpe. kah3, tetiba suma org nk bagi org tue ni ape saje yg diminta.Haaaa jgn x tau, rupenye yg mule tu marah n mengamuk, la ni dpt mcm2. Suma barang buruk tp masih leh digunakan. datang lak ramai hamba Allah yg tanye n pelik mana dpat banyak perabot. La, sumenye barang pungut tp bila dah letak kt bilik tu jd lawa pulok, mmg kelakar.Makcik ni , bila minta ape2, selagi x dpt x henti, jdnye banyak dpt harta (buruk tp mkcik pandai make over, jd suma org jeles pulak).Dunia, dunia. !!!!!

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Org tue ni dah dapatkan banyak pembantu utk berkhidmat untuknye.Kagum x. tukang kebun ke, cleaner ke,pak guard ke, sentiasa dtg untk bertanya khabar dan tanye ape nk tolong. Cuba cakap, sapa le x jeles!! he3. sabo aje le.

jadi sekarang nk cat bilik warna light purple match ngna sofa English yg baru dpt tu. Ni satu lagi yg wat org marah. Abis tu ade org tlg trade in kan sofa lama i ngan yg baru sket. I redho aje, org tue kan...Haa ramai yg dtg meninjau nk tengok sofa baru tu, pelik x....hari 2 just b4 chinese ny, org tua nie bagi2 limau pd ank buah pengawasnye. dah la budak2 lain jeles..jeles jugak..Cikgu pn ade yg minat. bagi je..kah3

x tau le, dah tue2 ni banyak lak idea. Buatkn borang utk budak2 tu wat laporan n mcm lagi...

Laaaaa. lupalak kelas sendri. budak2 tu baek tp kecoh x abis2. dah ramai guru2 yg mengadu pasal depa. Saba eje. hari tu dah kata-mengata sampai bertarik2 baju. nasib abik x koyak baju, pecaya x, budak2 sekarang. kuat gaduh. kena angin dr kawan pn nk wat gaduh....

nk g giant beli barang.. x tau bila nk sambung kah3. banyak lagi cerita dari org tua nih.. 

sori lambat warm up n lambat pik up

nape da lame sy x nulis.(malas mengatasi segala-galanye tp sebenarnye masih jahil ttg nk bukak benda alah nih, kena tunggu anak2 tlg br leh proceed). alasan dah basi tp x pe.
mukadimah over. lets get to d real business.
masa mula2 dulu mmg gairah nk nulis. mmg x saba2. dera anak2 bukak mcm2 so that can be a blogger. masalahnye once school starts(cikgu tue le kata) susah betul nk dptkn masa nak mengadap lptp ni. lagi pulak nk berebut sama org bujang n anak dara sorang tu. nk beralah tetiba muka masing2 jd seposen.
Therefore, bukak je skola, tetiba org bagi tugas baru. Minta ampun je. pegang kelas pastu jadi ketua guru pengawas lak. really, kalau nak dera pun , bajet2 le sket. dah diberi tugas x leh ditarik balik. cam2 lak. semput banyak hari dan merasai bdn . buat bising sama ramai org tp x menyelesaikn masalah. x puas hati. Pi jumpa pengetua tp masih cam 2 gak. sakit hati cos x dpt melepaskan diri. d moral of d stori is, ambik je suma tugas2 tu dan buat je ape yg mampu. D problem kt sini lak, bila dah mula wat keje, nk wat yg paling best. cuba pikir, sapa lak yg cakap gitu, sendri juga yg suke cari pasal, layan je le. dah mmg perangai kite gitu nk wat camno kan , layan je le jugak he3.  (habis bab niiiii)

so, mula le keje. tiba2 syok pulak ngajar budak2 tu. nape ye? x de jawapan. sendri juga yg tetiba angau semacam. layan...... banyak abis duit fotostat. tekak kering cuba nk explain grammar pd bebudak 2, hampeh, frust nonggeng, disappointed, suma perasaan menjelma. mmg le diaorang ni, penat org tua ni pegi step by step, ntah ape dia pikir pn x tau le, jenuh n berbuih mulut ulang bendanyg sama x dpt2. (cikgu  tua x give-up lagi, sori ye), bagi lagi eksesais diiringi ngan hukuman ringan. bagi lagi explanation, salin lagi nota tips n petua. ulang wat test, hukum depa kerna lupe, in d end ade gak yg dpt skor full marks. kah3. clkgu tua dah letih tp masih bersemangat. wat lak tongue twister...
stop jap nk g minum.......

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