terharu nye bila....

read this" Rasullah SAW bersabda yg maksudnya: " Org2 mukmin yg paling sempurna imannya ialah mereka yg paling baik akhlaknya dan sebaik-baik manusia daripada kalangan kamu ialah mereka yg paling baik kepada isterinya." - riwayat Abu Daud. Well guess who read that caption to me today??? My hubby. The question that came after that was," Am I good to you?"

Saya berasa amat terharu terus tergamam . Ape nak jawab? Of course he has been kind to me. He cares about his children tp biasa la, tak tau mcm mane nk tunjuk. He does it in his own special way but not obvious. Hey, kids! if u r reading this, pay heed to this situation or statement OK!!! Your parents, many of them r of d same age as me - 50 ++. They just do not know how to show they love u. These things were not taught by their parents too. Those who do show their love , learnt it themselves how to do it.

dah pulih dengan sendirinya

Suddenly I have recovered. thank God I have gotten over that down and depressed feelings. Sports, check- over. Room make over, check - still in process. Exam questions, check belum siap...haaa ni yang berat ni.

You see, nak buat soalan peperiksaan bukannye mudah. You have to take many aspects into consideration. kadang-kadang pelik, when you set the questions too easy,many students will fail. However if the questions are tough, many students will survive the test and passed, pelikkkan....

Setting the questions means all have been covered, the syllabus i mean.  Sometimes your colleges have not done so, therefore you have to tell them what you have set so that they can prepare the students. if not parents will complain. preparing the students is not easy work. the more you tell them whats coming out, the more they will blunder. kah3. But what to do, sometimes teachers feel guilty not tranning the students but students ni memang tak faham-faham. jadi sebenarnye tak payah nak train mereke semua ni. Bila results keluar memang melukakan hati, pecah dan hancur berderai-derai. Kadang-kadang rasa sia-sia aje mengajar budak-budak ni, dia buat tak tau je.

entahle tiba-tiba aje

Dont know why but tiba-tiba aje rasa depressed, murung, sedih n sakit hati. Banyak benda belum settle tapi malas nak uruskan. Bila layan perasaan rasa sedih...... hmmmm x leh layan cos menyusahkan diri sendiri aje nanti. Actually nobody can read your mind. if you are sad you must tell someone, but which someone. Sometimes the matter is quite sensitive to be told n shared. Not sure people will understand or can lighten the burden. Sometimes rasa nak mengamuk tapi takut pulak risiko nye.Hish bagaimana nak melepaskan perasaan yang amat mengganggu jiwa.

People can be very annoying without their knowing it or maybe they purposely like to annoy people. no names mentioned but but but...

really when I'm depressed i dont like it at all. i cannot settle many chores. my, my, that will lead to more problems. Nobody can help laaaaaa. Sakitnye hati

Most of the time memang i am happy go lucky.x kisah banyak benda. I am not too attached to people so people cannot gauge my real feelings. You see the older you get the more sensitive you are. I am no different. There were times i wish to pour out my heart's content but have no strength to do so. x sampai hati pun ade jugak. x tahu le

How to beat stress

Of course I get stressed up, what do you think! It does not show???? Well, well, well. There is a secret I would like to share with all of you. Maybe it will work for you too...

Firstly,  I like to dress up. No. I am not rich to be buying clothes or accessories all the time. Most of the days, I just put on my baju kurung. Pakai je ape yg ade, tak yah nak fikir2. Grab it and just find a scarf to match. This may go on for some time. Jeng3, angau tiba2 datang cos banyak kerja or time management vey tight. So time to dress up. Put on your skiirt and find a new scarf or belt. Wear it a little differently than other people. What other people.......x de sebenarnye. Sometimes KB, Idura or Hawa. Don't forget Zalia. They do look pretty and lovely cos they got many dresses and scarves. I dont belong to that group. I'm very low profile in my collection of clothing.  What I do is to dress up my way and style which people dont do. Only people in my school know what I'm talking about. Ade lagi yang diorang tak pernah tengok lagi kah3.... its coming.

Secondly, to stamp out stress is to bake. Bukan nak angkat bakul ( laa ni dah x larat pn nak angkat) but my cakes are really special. WHY????? I bake it with love, lots of it. When i bake i think of all those people who love my cake. These include my nephews and nieces, hasmah, nabilah, hawa, not to forget idura, timah d, matos and many many more... Add in more choc, more moist, extra butter bla, bla, bla

to be continued

going through a phase

How time flies? Wow before u know it, this year i am 51 years old. Gee whiz i am more than half a century already. i am 51 and i am still going strong teaching 15 year olds. This year my classes are really a handful, thats the least i can say. 3 form three classes and 1 form 4.
        This year I target to get as many scorers as I  can for their English. The trouble is. I am the one really aiming for A's. The students themselves are still lost without an aim. it would be tough with the attitude that they are in now. Some have shown some concern on the marks they are scoring but on the whole many are still happily wasting their time. So this means I have to get them going on the right track starting now. Does that mean I have to be mean and punish them .........
         I have plans and sometimes strategies for these students but sometimes its difficult to execute because too many students and many just cannot cope. Cikgu je lebih tapi budak2 ni ramai yg lambat pik up and belum sedar dari lamunan mereka. its the same story repeating itself every year.......
            well, i just have to work at and with these students so that they score for english. Susah ke english ni, tang manenye yg susah, i just don't understand.....
               I really hope the students know where they stand and start to study......Hei you guys , wake up, teachers are waiting to help you on your way to success......